Underneath the Moon. Underneath the Stars.

So I may have type 2 diabetes.

I looked up the symptoms and I have a lot of them.

I am really overweight so I’m not surprised. I knew in the back of my mind that I was going to get it.

I don’t know why I am so scared about it. I actually think people will treat me different sometimes, so maybe I just won’t tell anyone.

But I feel like a lot of my life will change. Because I just lay around a lot and eat.

I won’t be able to do that anymore. Ahaha

Even if it’s fun I guess I shouldn’t be doing only that in the first place.

But I’m still a little scared. My grandpa died of diabetes. But he liked to drink a lot and didn’t care much about it. Maybe if I pay attention and really try then it won’t be a problem and become a routine thing.

I’m still scared after telling my self that…

Then I look at you and I’m not scared anymore. I don’t even know you… Well, I do, but it’s hard to explain. You are always so nice to me and I just can’t smiling when I am around you. I think the will to see you again is going to help. And when you leave, maybe I’ll be strong enough to continue on my own. Thank you, for being an amazing person, even if you will never read this. Never know what you are doing for me. I hope you are treated well in the future, because you have helped me get through so much in my life. And now I have a little crush on you, but I can handle not being able to have you. I never will have you. I know that for a fact.

Well I think that’s it.

<3

Apr

2

2011

Notes

Dear God,

Why now?

Why?

People say that you are the all powerful being that controls the fate of the world.

Are we just like a Sims game to you?

Well, yeah I just wanted to tell you that I am horrified for my life now.

My dad said they probably won’t tell us if the radiation is going to kill us or not.

And we will just die anyway.

I don’t want to die yet.

I don’t think anyone here does.

Please stop.

Please stop this madness.

I am scared.

Just help Japan.

Help them fix the radiators.

Do something.

Don’t let us die please.

Stop killing everyone.

Why do you enjoy having everyone die?

Japan is already in turmoil as it is.

Now you want to worry the US.

Focus on Japan right now.

Help them.

They need you now more than ever.

Please stop this.

Please.

Love,
A girl who still doesn’t know her religion but hopes that you help anyway.

Mar

16

2011

Notes

I am really so scared.

I am horrified about the radiation and how there is a small chance that if will come over here.

I cannot handle all of this.

I think I am going to go insane.

I thought I would be okay then i heard my little sister’s radio start talking about how the plant isn’t doing so well and i flipped out.

And it doesn’t help that my dad has the news on 24/7

I am scared.

I don’t want to die.

Wow I haven’t been on here since Feb. 9th.

Boop Boop

David Bowie~

I am totally smitten. And he is 50 years older than me.

Agh

I think I may make an art blog in the near future.

Yeah.

:D

Mar

1

2011

0 notes

I am going to move the fuck on.

On to Disneyland.

On to awesome people.

On to social life.

ON TO OTHER PEOPLE.

You hear that self? GET OVER IT.

Moving on. No doubts. No going back. Just happiness and friends.

Feb

9

2011

Notes

Wow. I really hate myself.

Feb

7

2011

Notes

Right after this conversation.

refering to post before this.

Jan

29

2011

Notes

I will never share my feelings with others.

Jan

29

2011

Notes